John 20: 19-31
Offered to the congregation of the Long Valley Presbyterian Church, Long Valley, NJ
April 12, 2026, by Mel Prestamo, Ruling Elder PCUSA
This passage from John begins the story of the culmination of Jesus’ first day being resurrected as the Christ [the Chosen One] of God. Previously, his body has been taken by Joseph of Arimathea and placed in a tomb carved out of rock and then a large stone was rolled across the entrance.
The disciples are locked in a room hiding in fear, no doubt huddled in their dismay and grief over what has happened. Their leader, their Rabbi was violently taken from them. They ran away deserting him. Now, they feel that they have been left adrift unprotected – are they next to be crucified? Will the authorities be coming for them next?
Then Mary comes knocking, no pounding on the door. “They have taken his body. The tomb is empty. We don’t know where they have taken him.”
Peter and John break out of the locked room and run to inspect the tomb. They get there. And, that bull in a China shop Peter brashly rushes in and inspects the linens. He looks around. The tomb was empty just as Mary had said. What does this mean? Was his body stolen? Who would do such a thing?
They did not understand. They only had questions, no answers. They returned to that room. And once there, they relocked the doors.
But Mary who had run after them, remains crying at the tomb. It is then she encounters a gardener – or so she thinks. She is still weeping. Her eyes blurred with grief. But then she hears that voice say her name, “Mary.” It was the voice of the Good Shepherd, and his sheep recognized the shepherd’s voice. She turns and she sees the Risen Lord. Is it him? He looks different, but that voice. She speaks, “Rabboni”. Jesus reveals himself to her. They speak to one another, and Jesus tells her to go and tell his disciples to meet him in Galilee.
This news that Mary brings is no doubt received with bewilderment. The disciples knew with certainty that Jesus was crucified, that he was dead, that he was buried behind that huge stone. But his body was missing.
Then this news that Mary brings, what does this mean? They didn’t know if she was crazy or if …if…what? They did not know. So, their fear and grief kept them locked in that room.
Now grief is a very strong emotion. It is one that is very real and cannot be dismissed if we are to understand the motivations and actions of the disciples. Grief can take control of us and push us down a rabbit hole where it can be difficult to see the light of day much less the light of the risen Christ.
So here in probably the same upper room that they had celebrated Jesus’ Last Supper, they are locked away in their fear, and sorrow, and grief. But there is one thing that I would call your attention to. For the most part, the disciples were together and that they shared their grief and fear in community. This is a very human thing, a very Jewish thing, a very Christian way of dealing with the loss that death brings. Not to be trite but misery really does prefer company. Most of the time.
Most of the time but not for Thomas. Thomas chose to deal with his grief, his sorrow and pain, his own loss in private. John doesn’t account for where Thomas was or why he wasn’t with the others. So that gives us the opportunity for conjecture.
Perhaps, Thomas could have been at the Garden of Gethsemane praying for the strength and guidance that Jesus had received there from the Father. He could have been standing at Golgotha looking at the empty cross wondering what had happened, what had gone so terribly wrong, retracing the events of that day. He had said to the others, “Let’s us go so that we may die with him, also.” He might have been asking himself, Why wasn’t he there, too, and why didn’t he die with Jesus as he had imagined it would happen? We don’t know. John doesn’t tell us.
But more than the other three Gospels, John focuses on Thomas and makes him the center of attention in this part of the resurrection story. John tells us more about Thomas in these few verses than we can learn anywhere else in the other three Gospels. So, I would like us to take a look at Thomas and why John focuses so narrowly on him here in the aftermath of Jesus’ resurrection.
What do we know about Thomas?
In John 11, at the time when Jesus decides to go back to Jerusalem, to go to Martha and Mary to grieve with them over the passing of their brother Lazarus. At that moment, the disciples try to talk Jesus out of returning there. The last time he was there, the authorities tried to stone him. In their opinion it was a bad idea and just plain crazy to return there. No! Don’t go there!
But John tells us it was Thomas who said to the rest of the disciples, “Let us also go, that we may die with him.” Thomas was the one whose courage was the strength that the others needed.
What does this tell us about Thomas?
First, it is that he has a firm grip on reality. He is perceptive and realizes the dangers of going to Jerusalem. But he also knows that there is no talking Jesus out of what he has planned. He knows the man Jesus is head strong and cannot be swayed. He knows that Jesus has a plan. He doesn’t understand it, but he knows there is no derailing Jesus from his path he has chosen.
We learn here that Thomas is totally devoted and loyal to Jesus – that is, to the real man that he can see in front of him – and that is an important detail to know of Thomas’ character in John’s story. But we also learn from this brief verse that Thomas has the courage to follow Jesus even to his death, or so he thought.
“Let us go so that we may die with him.”
If this was as far as it was going to go; if this was how Jesus wants it to be, then without hesitation, we must support him and go with him, no matter the consequences. Thomas’ devotion and loyalty are a total commitment – as close to the point of death as his humanity could take him. Thomas wanted to be loyal to the man Jesus that he could feel and touch in front of him.
Maybe Jesus had Thomas in mind when he said to them, “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” Maybe, he saw that love and devotion in Thomas.
Here, I am going to take a brief detour from John. Thomas was called the twin. There is conjecture that it was because Thomas looked so much like Jesus. There is in Christian legend that Thomas was also a carpenter like Jesus. I don’t know if that is true, but it is interesting if it is true.
In my experience, I have come to learn that there are carpenters and then there are carpenters. I have a brother who has a ministry out on Long Island. He, like Paul, is a tent maker with a secular job to support his ministry and his family. He, for a time, was a Cabinet Maker. In conversation, I once told him that I mentioned to a friend that my brother was a carpenter. He was visibly insulted. “I am not a carpenter”, he told me. To which I responded, “Oh really? What are you?”
“A Cabinet Maker!”
I chuckled and asked what was the difference? “About 3/16s of an inch” (with all seriousness) was his answer. In other words, his work needed to be exacting to a fine line. His work demanded no margin for error, no guess work, no eyeballing, none of the broad strokes carpenters use, just fine lines.
If Thomas was a carpenter, I think, this was the kind of carpenter Thomas was. You can tell from what we learn about him that he will believe what he sees in front of him if it is presented in fine and exacting detail.
For instance, at that final supper, Jesus tried to reassure the disciples that he is going to the Father to prepare a place for them. That he will return for them and that they know the way.
But it is Thomas who says to Jesus, “How can we know the way?” In other words, I need details. I need to have more information. Be specific, tells us where you are going and how we can know the way.
John builds for us a character in Thomas that is devoted and loyal to Jesus but at the same time is demanding of details. In other words, don’t tell me the cut is about ¼ of an inch. Tell me precisely the measurement to 1/16 of an inch.
Jesus tries to tell Thomas, If you know me, you know the Father. If you have seen me, you have seen the Father. Jesus tried to reveal to Thomas what he needed when he said, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life.”
When I read this passage, I get the visual image in my head of Thomas’ reaction. Like any of us, I can imagine Thomas listening and nodding his head saying,
“O-K, I guess. Wait! What?”.
All of this gives us some insight to how Thomas decided to deal with his grief over the loss of this man that he loved and was devoted to.
Thomas couldn’t find his solace in a community locked in fear behind closed doors. Whether he was isolating himself in his own pain or retracing his steps – Jesus’ steps hunting for answers, Thomas was searching for the real hard details that this real man Jesus had spoken of. Jesus spoke of “The Way. Where is this way and how do I find it? Jesus said, I would know it. How can I know it? Where is the way so that I can follow him?
So, when Jesus first appears to the disciples in that closed room, Thomas is not there. Thomas is searching for answers but because he has isolated himself in his own grief, he missed the opportunity to find the way he was looking for.
So, when the other disciples tell Thomas, “We have seen the Lord,” he responds to them with his characteristic demand for exacting details and for some hard visual evidence that he can see and understand.
“Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.”
Can you hear him saying, I am a master carpenter. I know exactly what size nails were used to crucify him and exactly how large a hole it would make in his hands. I need to see them and measure them for myself so that I know to the 1/16 of an inch it is really him.
So now in John’s story, a week passes and here we have the disciples locked away in that room again, but this time Thomas is with them.
The doors are shut. John is clear about that. This time Thomas is with them. And Jesus enters into their midst and greets them, “Peace be with you.” Then, he turns to Thomas and invites him to put his fingers into the wounds in his hands and his hand into Jesus’ side. Come, do the holes fit your notion of what the size of the nails had to be? You doubt that it is really me, the real man who you loved with complete devotion and loyalty. Come and touch the physical evidence that you need to overcome your doubts.
Now, my friends, we have a moment. It is the critical moment for all humankind. This is the moment when humankind witnesses and affirms for the first time who the Christ really is. Thomas is the first to recognize it when he utters the words, “My Lord and my God!” Thomas is the first one recorded by John or any of the Gospel writers to acknowledge that right there in front of him was his God. God the Creator, God the Word, and the God whose Spirit would show him the way. Thomas is the first to bear witness that it is his God standing before him.
That is a moment for us to take pause. In that moment, Thomas recognizes that not only is this the man Jesus – his teacher, his leader, his friend, his RISEN Lord – but standing before him was his God.
John closes this story by having Jesus say to Thomas, “ Because you have seen me, you have believed.” In this moment, I perceive grace. I feel that Jesus understands the difficulty that Thomas has in understanding and in believing. And he is accepting of Thomas’ weaknesses. So, in this gracious moment, I believe that Jesus forgives Thomas his doubts.
And I think in his closing words, Jesus is speaking to us. “Blessed are you who have not seen and yet have come to believe.” For those of us who’s faith is rock solid based upon the witness of the Gospels and the Saints that have gone before us, Jesus blesses us.
But like for Thomas, I think Jesus also understands when we have difficulty, when we question, when we need something more, when we need encouragement, when we need bolstering up. He doesn’t come to provide physical evidence as he did for Thomas. For us he has given his Spirit and his church, his community of believers that repeat of the story of those first witnesses. He has given us not only the example of his Faith in the Father by going to the Cross; but also, he has given us a community of saints [real people in our lives] in whom we can also see his Spirit at work through their love and devotion to Father God. Look to them. Those are the hands that share with you and bless you with the Peace of Christ. Find in them Jesus’ love and his caring reaching out to you. Those hands are scarred with the holes of the nails that Thomas inspected and verified that there in our midst is our Lord and our God.